So, one more day gone by, two best friends gone off to college, and amazingly, I feel a lot better. The three of us spent the evening/night together last night, and it was comfy and just like the really good days. It was good enough that it made it okay to leave. They both left this morning, and I leave tomorrow. I think it will be okay.

I don't really know what else to say. I cried a lot yesterday, but I have no regrets about this summer. It was wonderful. I couldn't ask for anything more. I hope this year goes as well....

-Jenn-

So, I leave for Reed in two days, and I'm terrified. I don't really have a reason to be, except that it's suddenly hitting me on yet another level... it's been sinking in for quite a while now, it's just that all of my stuff is getting packed up (I'm living out of a suitcase for the next week), and Meather&Hatt leave tomorrow and I'm so nervous about the unfamiliarity of the other side of the country. It's nothing in particular that I'm afraid of. It's just the uncertainty. I know I'll be okay. Everything will be okay. But... oh wow. So scared. So not wanting to leave everything I've built up here as home...

I've never moved before. My room has been my room all my life, and I have never lived elsewhere, excluding a brief stint at my father's house a couple of blocks away. This has always been my yard. In a sense it still will be, but it's still going to be strange to not see it for two months. Two months without seeing either of my parents or my house or my dog. And I swore I wouldn't sp-end those two months pining for familiarity. Instead I know I have to build up my home there. 3,000 miles away. Maybe more, I don't even know.

Did I mention I'm feeling nervous today? And focusing on packing isn't helping, somehow. Every armload that comes out of my bedroom is a reminder. The living room is filled with boxes. And they're mine. With my life in them. And I'm leaving so much of my life here. And other partts of it are scattering across the country where it's so hard to reach......

-Jenn-